Super mad at myself!

okay so it is not exactly what you all think. I started my blurb book again, i am two years behind no worries right. As I am putting it together I am smiling and happy at all of these sweet little memories that I took the time to write down and blog, and now make into a book. I have slaked at the whole blogging thing really since my life went to 4 children. Yes it is a good excuse. My kids are my whole life and there is nothing that i don't do for them, but I need to think that this is for them to. So even if no one else reads my "blog" I don't really care sorry. This is for me and my kids and my wonderful crazy life.
As my children get older I am realizing how much fun and challenging being a mom is. For any mom that says it is not hard or crazy they are LYING. Every day I am brought to attention on something that I could be better at or something that my kids need to learn a mistake that they made and I need to help them with. I never thought that I would say I want my kids to make mistakes, how else are they going to learn and grow. How else am I going to teach them on how to deal and cope with things that are hard and difficult. As Hunter gets older and I have less and less not control, but he is more part of the outside world it is so hard to make sure he is making the right choices. There are so many outside influences out there that I don't want him around. I just hope and pray that Josh and I have taught him right. I am always telling his friends parents and neighbors please tell me if Hunter has done anything that needs attention. He will never learn unless I know about it. As a mom I really try hard with all of my kids to tell them to be kind to people. You don't have to be there best friend but please please just be kind.
Hunter up to this point is a great kid and I could not be prouder, but that doesn't go with out saying there has been some learning experiences and guidance. My other kids are really not out in the "world" yet for me to really know. I keep them right next to me for as long as possible.

Bella sweet Bella, she asks me for a sister almost everyday. I wish I could tell her yes for sure, but sadly that is not in my control. She is defiantly the second mother of the house and for that I am grateful. She is DRAMA and sweet. So self sufficient on somethings and just cant seem to function with out me on others. She still has me tuck her in and sing "Twinkle Twinkle" and for that I am so grateful. For I know that there will become a time that she wont want a song sung to her anymore. She insists that I take her to School in the morning. She wont even let Josh. I took her this morning she ran all the way to the door and ran back to the car just to give me a kiss. Those are the moments that I love and want to hold onto forever.
Beckaham oh man little beck is still my little guy, who is so darling and frustrating in the same sentence. He has this sweet spirit about him that I really cant explain. I have felt it about him since the day he was born. He has this cute little voice and is so funny. He loves loves Lego's right now and could play them all day. He loves his best friend Grant (Janice's Son) they are two months apart. Those two seriously have a hard time going more then one day without each other. One minute beck is your best friend and the next he is mad and angry and doesn't like you, but for some reason I just laugh and I can more often then not snap him out of his bad mood then he turns into yummy Beckham. He loves loves his little brother Cruz. He wakes up running into his room when he hears him. He wants to give him a hug and a kiss. He is always telling me that him and Cruz are twins. Beckham will tell me he loves me 10 a day. Love that
Cruz Sweet baby. Of course our he is darling he is the baby. Well 18 month old baby. he is so cute and sassy. He is starting to talk and get a fun personality. He loves to play with balls and play with Beckham. He is so sweet and cuddly. He loves his dad more then me right now. Total bummer I am sure that he will change his favorite soon well I hope so. He will wrestle with beckham and totally keep up. The dude can hold his own. He makes me smile.
So that is caught up on my kiddos. I am one lucky mom.